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November 29, 2016

A New Month Cometh

Filed under: Holidays,Inspiration,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 12:17 pm

Can you believe tomorrow is the last day of November? Don’t worry- I can’t either but I admit I’m ready for the holiday month! After a really big day of sadness on Saturday (which I have attributed to missing being home for the holidays, plus hormones), I came out the other side feeling pretty awesome and festive. After all- tis the season and all that jazz.

The reality is- despite the fact that some people think that my life is always perfect and I’m always happy- that isn’t the case. I would be lying to you and myself to pretend that was the case. I have bad days- sometimes (as in Saturday), I have really bad ones. In this case there was no rhyme or reason other than the aforementioned ones. I usually try to figure out what’s going on and when I can’t, I try to focus on all the blessings in my life (and there are many) and my mood shifts on its own. This time that didn’t happen, but rather than make it harder on myself, I gave myself the time to feel what I was feeling, went to bed that evening and the following day woke up feeling somewhat better. I felt a little like I was coming down with a bug- but I attributed that to all the toxic that was running through my veins the day before and it needed to come out in one way or the other. Sunday night I slept really well and by yesterday I felt like an entirely new person. Like “ME” again.

The lesson in this? For me- I knew that being honest with myself and my feelings was essential. I couldn’t find a specific reason behind how I was feeling, but I gave myself the time to work through whatever ‘it’ was that I couldn’t fully define and it worked itself out. I was true to what I needed and went with it. No negative attachments, it was what it was. I didn’t live there- but I went there for a little while. We all do.

You know what? It isn’t a bad thing. It’s in the darkness and coming out into the light- that we really find ourselves appreciating it even more. That was the case with me- and I continue to feel that today.

I am grateful for the life I have- and for the people in it.

What about you? What are you grateful for today?

Making Progress

Filed under: Home,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 12:04 pm

This morning I went out to our storage shed with the idea that I was going to browse our Christmas decorations and possibly find some inspiration as to what we would like to do for our tree this year in terms of size and decoration / theme. What happened instead, was me going down a rabbit hole of getting certain things organized out there, as I couldn’t make heads or tails of some of the boxes out there. I found several rca cables just lying on a shelf. No name, no labels, no boxes they should go in nearby. I also found some flower pots that should have been tossed last season due to cracks and so forth. Needless to say, it was a productive time in the shed, but not the same type of productivity that I’d envisioned. BUT with that being said- it’s one less thing to have to think of that I can check off my ‘to do’ list- even if I didn’t have any idea it was ‘that bad’ out there.

Do you have a space in your home or garage that seems to never stay organized?

September 30, 2013

Attitude of Gratitude- Letting the Sun Shine In

Filed under: Food for Thought,Gratitude,Inspiration,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 3:58 am

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If you know me in my eyeryday world- then you know that even though I am human (thankfully) and do have my moments, that I do try to find the positive (silver-lining if you will) in every single day.

It’s no secret to those who know me- that this year my integrity has been tested,  my heart has been broken, and at one point I wondered if the pain of it all would ever get any better.

I won’t go into the details here, because quite truthfully- the details don’t matter.    Obstacles happen in life- and there is often this misnomer that if we choose to walk away from things that have become too painful and / or toxic to stay a part of that it is easy.   I can assure you- it’s anything but.   Especially when you have a half-hope that you could be wrong- that you’d really like to be wrong, only to find out that you are anything but.

It goes back to the quote from Maya Angelou that I love so much-  “When people show you who they are- believe them.”

So- it’s been a difficult year, but I knew that just as all things- that it would get better, and it has.   While some people would let an obstacle make them bitter- or let them live in a victim role, I know that I’m anything but.    Was I hurt?  Yes!

Did it make me question 90% of every relationship in my life?   YES

Did I allow it to make me bitter?    NO!!

Rather than become a victim to the story and make it about me-   I have thought and analyzed and been able to understand why things are what they are.    As I’ve mentioned before- it’s not about me- (it never was) and I know that I’ve always acted with integrity- even when I really didn’t want to.      That’s what matters- what I ACTUALLY did when called to task, as opposed to what I THOUGHT about doing..      The truth always takes care of itself..    It will never be my job to be judge, jury and executioner.

So now- months later, I can honestly say I’m better.    I’m grateful for the huge life lesson and the doors that it has opened since.

I feel the sun shining on my shoulders and it’s a beautiful feeling.

Grateful-   that’s me.

July 31, 2013

Mix-Up

Filed under: Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 1:28 am

Last week I had an email from a fayetteville nc business lawyer asking me to call him. At first, I thought it surely had to be spam, but they used my last name (which not everyone knows). I am pretty skeptical on all emails, so instead I did a Google search and found that the law office did indeed exist and the attorney was ‘real’.

So I called them, mostly out of curiosity- and as it turns out a distant relative of mine (same last name) had contacted them, and when they searched the last name, they found my email address and thought I was them. They were really sweet and friendly and apologized for the mix-up. I was unable to offer them an email address on my relative as I haven’t talked to them in years (and didn’t know they lived in North Carolina), but wished them luck in finding her.

August 3, 2012

August 3, 2012 – Gratitude

Filed under: Gratitude,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 6:00 am

I’m taking a little hiatus from Facebook (and many other things at the moment) but one thing I didn’t want to do was get away from my daily gratitude.   I’m going through something very personal at the moment, but even in this time of uncertainty- there is still so much to be grateful for.

Today I’m Grateful for:

  1. Being able to spend some quite time alone with my thoughts to think about everything that is happening.
  2. The friendships that I have with those who have recognized that something is amiss and have checked on me and offered an ear if I need one.
  3. A good nights sleep.
  4. Knowing that in everything is a lesson to be learned- even though we don’t always see it at first.
  5. Unconditional love.

May 13, 2012

There ARE Worse Things

Filed under: Health/ Fitness,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 11:02 am

I’ve been feeling on top of the world lately- I’m happy and content. I do find myself feeling a little irritated with the fact that I’ve come down with a head cold. I don’t ‘feel’ horrible, but I don’t feel good. It’s frustrating because I don’t feel like doing all the things I would like to do, and since I was JUST really sick a while back- I am not happy that I started sniffling and sneezing Friday.

I know it’s part weather and I honestly believe that part of it is because my immune system was low after being sick the weeks before. There are much worse things- and I’m grateful that it isn’t serious. But it still annoys me. It’s slowing down my productivity. I have to keep remembering- there are worse things.

April 20, 2012

Day Three

Filed under: Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 4:25 am

Today is the third day of not feeling well. Yesterday and today all symptoms have left with the exception of being constantly tired and having no energy. I did have a half cup of coffee today, so I’m convinced I’m on the road to recovery. There’s something to be said about positive thinking, right??

Marcel is working and JJ is at my mother in laws. It makes life really easy for me since I am unable to get out right now. It also makes it easy for me to sleep when I need to without being disturbed.

March 7, 2012

Focus and Refocus

Filed under: Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 11:40 am

I’m on the road to refocusing some things in my life. I’m a person who really believes if something isn’t working in our lives- then it’s up to us to take the steps to change it.

For the past couple of years- I’ve been unfocused on many things. My head is a minefield of thoughts and I’m always tiptoeing around one thing to the other and never really getting anywhere. If you know me at all, then you know that defintely isn’t who I am yet for the past two years that’s exactly who I’ve become.

I have recognized why and how- but now it’s time to do something about it- recognizing hasn’t been enough. So I’m taking a little break to focus on me- completely on my health and well-being and what I need to do to stop spinning my wheels and get that forward momentum going again.

I’m off in a ditch somewhere- and because I’ve gotten into this loop of odd thinking- I’m finding it hard to get back up. That’s how I know it’s time for change- because what I’m doing isn’t working. It’s time to reinvent what works for me- and make it happen and believe me- it will.

September 14, 2011

What Really Matters

Filed under: Life,Life's Little Hiccups,Travel — gardener @ 8:36 am

I’m not sure why- but it has been one of those days. You know the ones- where it seems like everything you touch breaks or falls apart. I know that tomorrow is a new day (thankfully) and in spite of having much to do- I’ve decided that while dinner is cooking that I’ll spend a little time writing and reflecting.

There has been a LOT going on in my world as of late. Most of everything that has happened has been positive- (Started a business, my parents are visiting and we’re vacationing) but there are a few blips on the screen that have raised my stress levels. I keep looking and moving forward- determined not to look back and keep reminding myself that the actions of others are theirs and theirs alone and that I can’t change it. It doesn’t make it easy though- especially when you see people you love and care about getting hurt.

I’m an emotional soul- so it takes me a while to process things and give them a place, but I’ll get there. After all- there are great things happening- We’re headed out to Germany and Austria tomorrow where new adventures await. Not to mention mom and diddy will be sharing that with us- so that makes it all the more special. Focus on the good stuff- that’s what I keep telling myself. After all- that’s what really matters isn’t it?

August 24, 2011

Get Up and Go

Filed under: Health/ Fitness,Life,Life's Little Hiccups — gardener @ 9:01 am

There is this old saying that says- “My get up and go has got up and went.” I always thought that was funny until I realized recently that is exactly how I feel. I’ve actually given it quite a bit of thought as to why I seem to be so motivated for some things, and yet others (like exercise) seem to be like pulling teeth to get me motivated to do.

It finally hit me earlier today that I think the reason is because my mind has been so busy with constant thoughts that I really am tired mentally and it’s making me too tired to consider exercise. Ok- I do ‘consider’ it- but that’s about as far as it goes. I am going to try to figure out a way around this and adapt the catch phrase- ‘just do it’. If it works for Nike- it should work for me. I know I’ll feel much better- both mentally and physically and my body will thank me.

Now to put those words into practice.

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