Through The Tulips Words of 'Wiz'dom

I realized today that something is amiss with me these days. What, exactly, I haven’t been able to put my finger on, but I’m trying.

I would suspect that it’s a combination of a plethoria of ‘little things’, which have been sitting, unprocessed in this grey matter of mine, and have snowballed into something larger than it should be.

That alone should be enough- but instead, I’ve found myself falling prey to some pretty negative and destructive activities the last few days. Don’t worry, by destructive, I don’t mean I’m off drinking, doing drugs, participating in lewd sexual behaviour  or anything like that- but I’ve found myself being pretty negative, and by allowing the negativity to take root, it’s created other problems- or shall I say- I’ve allowed it to manifest in other areas.

I recognize this; which is the first step to working through it and correcting the problem. Now, I have to understand the ‘whys’ and go from there, plus take steps to prevent this from happening in the future.

We all have speedbumps, but it’s how we react to them that make the difference, and my reaction has been far from stellar. I’m only human, so flawed- but I have to be true to me, and get myself back on track- and I will do just that.

How? I’m not sure, but I will get there. You can bet on that- I won’t stay down for long. I’m not only determined, but extremely stubborn. I think I get that equally honest from both parents, whom I adore.

Even though I’m not feeling very ‘grateful’ at the moment, I know the importance of finding the little things in every day life to be grateful for. Even though I may not ‘feel’ grateful, I am.

My Gratitude List for April 18, 2009.
Today I’m Grateful For:

• A quiet evening home alone.
• Silence-
• Recognizing when things are amiss, and working to sort through.
• Cherry blossoms.
• Chococcino (Chocolate cappuccino)

I really love that I can be any and everywhere, and jot out a few words here and there, or even share a picture if I have the urge.

I’m across the street in this photo. Well, you can’t actually see me, but you can see spring in all it’s glory. Isn’t it gorgeous?

The past two nights I’ve had the weirdest dreams. Thursday night, I dreamt that there was this fox in my yard trying to eat Mister Mistoffelees, so I grabbed him and put him inside, but when I came back out, there were six kittens outside, and the fox had eaten part of the leg of one of the kittens. I scared the fox away, and was crying over the one kitten, because I had left it behind. I remember picking it up, saying it was going to be ok, and thinking I was going to take it to the vet, when I woke up.

Last night, I dreamt I was on a vacation somewhere. I’m not even sure where it was, other than it was warm, and there was beautiful azure water. It could have been an island. I was on this bicycle, and went into this grocery store, and asked the person behind the counter if they could direct me to the area that sold Ferrari parts. The man behind the counter looked at me, and the pointed to a door in the back of the store. I walked to the door, and woke up when I put my hand on the knob to open the door.

I wonder what tonight will bring? I haven’t had crazy dreams like this in a while, at least not that I remember.

In a moment my favorite guy will be home from work.  The past two days, the weather has been great, so he’s actually rode a bicycle to work as opposed to driving   I think it’s only about a 20 minute bike ride, and he enjoyed himself so much yesterday, that he decided to do it again today.

I’ve noticed the past couple of weeks that he’s really been thinking about his health, and wanting to make positive life changes. As I’ve mentioned before, he’s planning to stop smoking once he’s finished with this final school project, and mentioned that he wants to start exercising more and getting into shape. He’s been thinking about life insurance leads, and wants to be as healthy as he can be. I believe the deaths we’ve seen lately really have him thinking about his own mortality, even though he hasn’t mentioned it.

Right now, I need to get his soup heated and his salad made so that it will be ready when he gets here. The wind has shifted and is coming in off the water, which has cooled things off a great deal, so I know he’ll be happy to have something hot to warm him up.

As you can see from the previous entry, I can now make remote entries (WITH PHOTOS) from my iPhone. I’d mastered the remote entries, but was having some scripting issues with getting photos loaded, and I wasn’t about to let it get the better of me.

After several hours and calling in the experts (something I’m definitely not), and showing a little patience, the problem came down to a / being where it shouldn’t be. Remove that and voila’, everything works the way it’s suppose to. YEAH!!

In the future, that will allow me to make entries from places that I think could be fun to make entries from. After all, you never know where I’ll be and want to see something that I’ll share.   It really is the little things that excite me.

My Gratitude List for April 16, 2009.
Today I’m Grateful For:

• Having the scripting errors fixed and being able to post photos remotely. YEAH!
• An afternoon with my gal pal Bobbi.
• Marcel, for hanging out the laundry for me today.
• Extra work that I wasn’t expcting to have. YEAH!
• Leftover chicken soup.  DELICIOUS!

Testing the remote entry with photos.

Yeahhhhhhhh!!!!! It works!

I’ve been sitting here with the windows and doors open, enjoying the gorgeous weather. The temps are falling and it’s not cold, but just that perfect ‘cool’ that I love the most. I could sleep with the windows open when it’s like this, but unfortunately my favorite guy can’t stand to sleep with the windows open.

Marcel just got home from work, and he’s on the phone with his sister. They are having a discussion about something, that I haven’t been able to figure out yet, but I’m sure that as soon as he gets off the phone he’ll tell me all about it.

Arghhh, I just remembered that I forgot two things when I was at the grocery store today- light bulbs and Swiffer wet mop refills. I guess that’s what happens when I don’t make a list. I’ll have to start a list right now and add them to it.