I’ve been going through quite a bit emotionally lately- and quite honestly I had a moment where I wondered if things would ever change. Marcel said that it isn’t like me to think so drastic and while he’s right- sometimes when everything hits at once it seems like it may not end.
But the old saying what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger is true.
Yesterday I woke up and it was as though a flip had switched and I felt completely different. I no longer had the feeling of being overwhelmed with grief and sadness, but instead I felt like ‘me’ again. I’m not one to run from things since I know it will only show up again down the road- so I’ve taken the time to ‘feel, deal and now ultimately heal’.
I feel great! Carol’s birthday would have been two days ago and I thought about her and smiled. I remembered all the wonderful times we had together and celebrated those memories. I will always miss her- but I’m so grateful for the time we had together.
I have a gratitude app that I write my gratitudes in daily-(a recent thing) but I still want to share them here from time to time- if not daily. I think it makes a difference to focus on the things in life that I’m grateful for- and that isn’t always the happy, happy, joy, joy moments, but also the ones that make me sad, because even for those I’m grateful- for it is then when I learn the most.
Today’s bits of gratitude.
- I’ve mentioned it a lot lately- but I’m so grateful for the people in my life that know me to the depths of my soul- who I am, what I stand for, and accept me for the person that I am.
- For recommitting myself to good health both mentally and physically and all that it embodies.
- People who continue to believe in and support my business.
- Marcel and our relationship. He is one of my biggest cheerleaders.
- Vacation plans.
