Shame- it’s something which has come up in a lot of conversations recently & also something I’ve realized about myself in the last year of coming face to face with what has held me back in my life. Shame– not packaged as so, but rather packaged in a way that would keep me from being me, so I am not ‘too much’ for another.
So many of us have unrecognized shame that manifests within our daily lives. In some cases it comes across as a bravado of not caring what others think, an armor to keep anyone from knowing what is happening inside- that we are fearful of not being enough.
In others of us- it has held us back in life without even realizing it- giving up, self- sabotage and feeling as though we can’t shine as it will seem arrogant, so we stop trying giving up just out of reach of goals.
I’ve thought a lot about this and done a lot of work and research- not for others but for myself. In the midst of seeing so many people I love spewing hate towards others- and it seeming so foreign to me- I dug deep and peeled back layers that I’m still peeling back, yet I’m learning and in some cases unlearning how everyone else has expected me to be and letting that go so that I can fully be me.
More on that .. but I’m still learning and probably always will be.